Kind of have an update. While I’m still not any more over this guy after 5 months, I felt I made progress yesterday. A few days ago I had sent him a message, basically apologizing for treating him more like a friend than a boyfriend for most of the relationship. I have so much guilt about it and thought that maybe if I apologized and got it off my chest I might be able to start moving on. He finally responded yesterday, hours after I saw he had read it. I didn’t expect a response so I was very surprised. He basically thanked me for the apology and gave me the “I still consider you a friend and want you to know I’m always here for you” speech. I told him I appreciated that, but I wasn’t in a place where I could be friends and talk to him. After that he asked me how things were going and I tried to be as short as I could and end the convo without being rude, since I had just expressed to him that I couldn’t do the talking like friends thing. Anyway, maybe it will help me move on or maybe it won’t. As much as I’d love to keep talking to him and try to charm him back into having feelings, I don’t think that’s best for my heart right now. That part of me is giddy that I was even on his brain yesterday, but I can’t focus on that or I’ll never make progress. I told him that I wanted him to be happy even if that means I can’t be happy right now because that’s what you do when you love someone that much & that I hoped she loved him at least half as much as I do. It took a lot for me to say that to him, so maybe that’s a sign I’m starting to slowly take a step forward.
JLynn1988
