I’m not sure what kind of job you have that affords you to talk to this woman for 8 hours in a day and for three or more hours a day most days. I think you might have too much time on your hands. If you already have a job, consider getting a second job. Maybe you can volunteer for a charity. There are lots of people who have real problems like cancer, homelessness, American veterans who’ve suffered during tours of duty and now need help. Consider spending your time volunteering for people who really need your help. Maybe you can get involved with politics or an environmental cause or helping the elderly who are so often abandoned by their own families or some other greater good.
You appear to be bored and misdirected. I’m not sure you have any direction. You’re obviously bright, but you’re wasting all that intelligence meandering through life.
Quit drinking, quit trolling Facebook, and quit introducing your children to women you got drunk and slept with. Lots of people are not as lucky as you to be bright and healthy. Go help them. Maybe you’ll find yourself along the way.