You’re following a dream.
Sorry. I’m not sure that’s what you wanted to hear — actually I’m sure it’s not what you wanted to hear, but you didn’t come here for lies!
You’re vulnerable because you’re divorcing. You’ve also been cheated on, so it’s normal to feel rejected as well. The booty call boyfriend is back — but not really. If he was just overseas or long distance, it might work out, but because you have a failed history with him, I think you’re just clutching at straws and he’s Mr. Available or worse, Mr. Right Now.
Finish getting divorced. Meet some new people who don’t treat you like a booty call or cheat on you. You’re getting a fresh start, use it well. Re-read my books if you haven’t already, and consider them your refresher course for getting a fresh start on dating and the world!