I’m sure that you have a lot of confusing feelings because you have a history of infidelity with your husband, and he is far away right now, so you don”t feel secure about his loyalty to you.
That said, I think it’s very sad, but it’s time for you to move on. Your husband has a need to be around women when you are not there, and this isn’t working for you. Trust your instincts. Keep the drama level low if you can, and take care of business. Surround yourself with supportive, positive people, especially those who have gone through divorce and can help guide you. It’s a bumpy road, but staying on the path you’re already on is going to get you no where good.
Accept the fact that this is a man who needs a woman in every port and preferably more than one. It’s not you. It’s who he is. I hope that allows you to move through any rejection you may feel when a marriage fails, and move forward with your life, allowing him to move forward with his own — on his own.
