If you’re not dating him, then stop sleeping with him. You’re just confusing yourself by trying to convince yourself that the sex means more than it does. He’s ready and you’re willing — and he doesn’t see a future with you. I’m sorry to be so blunt, but I think you need to get a grip on what’s actually happening, not what did happen, or what you want to have happened. I know you want to get back together, but keeping yourself in the friend zone and the friends with benefits zone, is just prolonging the inevitable. I think it’s time for you accept the break up and start acting broken up so you can get healthy and happy again.
I hope that helps. I know this is difficult for you, but it will get easier once you commit to moving on, let go of him and the relationship you shared, and start acting single. That’s also the best way to be available to meet someone new! 😉
Let me know if you have any other questions.