It is extremely difficult to right a sinking ship but that is exactly the business that God is in! I suggest you recognize that you need to get involved in a spiritual program which offers practical ideas for healthy daily living and relationships. A program which is free is Al Anon which is offered at Alcoholic Anonymous centers. You could get a sponsor who would help you work the 12 step program and you might find a moral compass for living and practical tools for healthy relationships. Somewhere along the way, you got lost or you were not raised with these core values. But there need not be any judgment against you. Everyone makes mistakes. We need to stop making the same mistakes over and over. I strongly suggest getting some core spiritual and moral support. You are young and your ship can be righted and you can face smooth sailing in years to some!
