I have made the changes that i needed to make. he and i are still in semi talking terms. he said he just needs his space to figure things out. it is so hard to listen to the advice given as far as leaving the man alone. have you been in love and made a mistake or even no mistake at all, just being in love is enough and they left you suddenly. well when you are there your mind works so mysteriously and first it is denial. then realization. then it is decision making. do i love him or dont i? is it enough? do i fight for him to prove to him to show him? do i fight to try to keep him around? do i let him go and move on? do i let him go cuz i think that is what is best? do i just stand back and wait? questions like that form and it makes it so hard and confusing. for those out there that is what love is. i hate peoples advice is always to run or to move on. that is bull. i mean unless your life is in danger or you yourself are not trully happy or in love with that person. there is no reason that couples can not stick out any ordeal and make a relationship work. it is advice telling people to just move that bothers me that is why no one gets married anymore and if they do divorce rates are so high. what happened to death do us part or finding your one true love. no one believes in love anymore. well, on that i do agree with what i need to do to fix me, which i have. but until it happens to you and you are forced to make decisions kind of spur of the moment some times people fail in those decisions and make mistakes. it is whether or not we learn from them. i am aware of the 12 step program. i come from a family of alcoholics. u can tell me god this and god that but i used to believe in god until shit fell apart, then my belief is gone. where was he when i needed him most? i always have been a good girl never done any wrong to no body always went out of my way for everyone. have always been a trustworthy person. i even before i was with him only been with one guy which i was with for 9 years and had 2 kids by. so dont take me as some chick who just was being selfish and mean. i got lost is all.
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