i will say this i sound like the devil for what i did to him, but i really do love him. i know it sounds ridiculous, cuz after i read it to myself all i did and it is not in detail about the deceit, which i did a lot of. i do love him. i now am being hit with a huge reality check. i cannot change the past, however i can change the future which is what i intend on doing. whether it be with him, alone, or with someone else. i can only forgive myself for all i have done. i would hope that he forgive me too. i wish he would take me back… whoever reads this all male or female be completely honest about what you think about me, what he should do, what i should do, and what you make of the situation. tell me what you would have done or done differently. thankx
