In your mind, it is urgent. So maybe doing other things with other people would fill your mind so that you do not obsess about it. get some perspective.
She is not on the same page as you are. Where she is in this relationship is not at all clear. So the truth is that you probably got sexually involved, that sex can be very bonding for some and for others it is just sex, and sounds like you bonded emotionally and she didn’t.
You never close a deal or get a deal in buisness if you are not willing to leave it. That is to say you have no negotiating power in biz if you want to buy an asset or close a deal at any cost- people act desperate in biz too.
If you feel emotionally desperate, then probalbly it is not love, it is unfilled emotional needs within you. And filling wholes within us through other people… well, it never works long term. Short time is glue but not a long term basis for a great relationship.
I suggest you adopt a better attitude towrds yourself.. wow, I am the prize; she is lucky to be with me; if she wants me, let her show it.
It could be that she is not emotionally mature too. Maybe she likes men who don’t like her and rebuff men who like her? You know, the old chase mentality. Well, there is always an element of that even in a healthy relationship, but it is rooted in insecurity and offers no long term foundation for true love.
On the plus side, you seem to be an emotional and sensitive man and there are plenty of women who crave that in a relationship!
Good luck. have fun. take a closer look at some other babes out there whike she is chillin’.