1- Day Break Up?

Hi there!

It’s very rare for me to use things like this, but I am wanting to get opinions of people who don’t know me or my boyfriend, because I am wanting to hear an outsider’s view I guess! ^^ So here goes:

I am 20 years old, and my boyfriend is 21. We both liked each other at school, but did nothing about it. We have been together for nearly two years now. We are currently at the same Uni together, and have just finished our first year of living together while at Uni (We lived together before at Uni, but he was in a house share with other guys, so it wasn’t the same) Now, living together was great and we had a really good time, but about a month ago, he turned up at my house and split up with me…

It was completely out of the blue! Although, he did give me the reasons why he did want to split up with me. Some were to do with my anger, and others things which are a bit too personal to mention here.
However, he did say that he wanted more freedom, but after we spoke (read on…) he realised he just wanted more freedom within the relationship (e.g. watching things he wanted for example), he also doesn’t want to live with JUST me. He wants to live with friends (mutual friends), but he also wants me to live with him too while at Uni. However, he has told me that he does want to live with me after Uni and find a place together.

Despite this, he said he had been thinking of it for a month before he did it, however within this month everything seemed completely normal; he wouldn’t hesistate when he said he loved me, and when we spoke about things like him finding someone better, he would reply with “You are the best for me” with NO hesistation at all. Now, admittedly, I wasn’t very nice during the relationship (Nothing physical), but I have a short temper and the ‘break- up’ hit a lot home for me (which is kinda why I’m a tad glad it happened), because our relationship has improved so much!

Now, he came round to mine the next day after it happened and we spoke about everything and he realised that he was partly to blame for some things. He was at a lunch the same day and he had told me he missed me, but while he said that he burst into tears and I asked if he wanted a hug and he nodded and just cried into me. We got back together the day after everything happened.

Despite this, I still worry SO SO much about him doing it again – he has told me time upon time that his head was not in the right place the day he split up with me and he just didn’t know what to do (I am his first serious relationship, I have had one serious, but long distance relationship before him – except my ex was a ****)
He said he was scared to tell me during the month he had thoughts about it, but he just also reassures me that he loves me and constantly says he does and he promises etc. etc.
Thing is, I knew during the break up that some things just didn’t add up, despite being told by everyone that I was giving myself false hope, I KNEW something was up, and I was essentially right.

I do think my boyfriend loves me, because his actions and words say so (Apart from the break up itself), but I know how much pain he caused me, and I am scared about him doing it again I guess.

Is there any help or advice you can give me? Do you think this relationship can/ will work? Do you think that his mind was just in a bad place and it truly wasn’t what he wanted?

I am sorry for the long post, I guess there was just a lot to ask!!

Thank you in advance for any help.