It sounds like he’s pushing you away and this is painful for you. 🙁 When you choose someone to date, there are certain things you can look for to insure a better chance of success. Career stability is one of them, and mental health is another. When you’re with someone who’s got an unstable career and chronic problems with depression, it’s going to be more challenging to make things work. If you’d been dating him for four years and he ran into a career issue, that would be one thing, but this relationship is new — and for half of it, it’s been long distance, which is even more complicated and a cause of a lot of relationship issues under normal circumstances. 😕
My advice is to really pay attention to who you’re dating and the fact that he is very clear about his wanting to push you away. It’s okay for you to feel hurt, and it’s appropriate when you’re rejected like this, but what would be a mistake is to try to stay with someone who doesn’t want to be with you. 😉