I don’t think you made a mistake, and if we were friends, I’d be making sure you had party invitations for this holiday weekend, so you could be single and available. 😉 Anyone who has dumped you “numerous times” over five years and dumped you “in the most obscene and horrible ways” is best left in your past. You can do better — and you will. 😉 Decide that at 34 years of age, you’re ready for a relationship with someone who is respectful, committed and has great character. And go looking for someone with those three qualities. If you want a long-term, committed relationship, that’s what you need. Now, make some plans for the weekend, so you’re busy and active. An idle mind is the devil’s playground — get busy and start this new chapter in your life today. 🙂