Where to start? I have been with my husband for over 15 years. We have been through alot together and I love him so much.
He was injured in a work accident about 10 years ago and our lives have never been the same since and have been on a very slow burn since then. It is to the point where because of his work schedule and intimacy issues that he has developed we have pretty much become room mates. I seriously can’t remember the last time that we had sex. I am a very physical and sexual person and this is killing me inside.
Here is the issue. I have always hated it where we live and have felt trapped in some sense. I recently went out of town to a beach community that I have always loved and have family there. When I got off the plane it was like I was coming home, not leaving my home. In the course of my adventures there I met a man that has awakened things in me that I haven’t seen in a long time and thought they were buried and gone. Nothing happened with him other than conversation and maybe a little flirting. The one thing that did happen is the last night I was there we were visiting and fell asleep in each others arms. I am not saying that this man is the man to beat all others or that I want to leave my life for. This man is the one that helped me to see my life for the mess that I have let it become. I know the old saying……The grass isn’t always greener on the other side etc. When it was time to come home I was so angry that I had to leave and come back. To add insult to injury, when I walked into my house it was absolutely trashed. None of the chores had been done since I had left, garbages were full, etc. It was like because I wasn’t there it didn’t get done.
What about me? What about what I want? What about sacrificing my needs? I feel so trapped and confined right now I don’t know what to do, or if I am losing my mind and sanity.
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