I have been married for 33 years and we lived together for 4 years prior. About two weeks ago I found an ex-fiance’s email address and heard back from her the next day. I am 60 now and she is 59. We were 23/22 when we broke up. We lived together almost 2 years and dated 6 months before that. We have exchanged emails, friendly and non-sexual. Within 3-4 months of dating, I had moved out of town about 150 miles away. She cam to visit and it was so passionate, I forgot to withdraw. She is Catholic and was not on the pill. She became pregnant and decided to have an abortion. I supported her decision although I would not do that now. I wanted to marry her (we were engaged). I ask her to marry me after only knowing her a month and she confessed she loved someone else but liked being with me. I said OK, I can wait. I took her to Accapulco and she accepted my proposal (she became pregnant three/four months later). So, we moved in together and the other guy would crop up time to time in phone calls, B-day party, mutual friends, etc. But, she said it was over. So, she graduated from college and her Gmother had give her money so she decided she was going to the Bahamas. I called the room late one night and a guy answered. She confessed and I told her we would talk when she got back. I moved out, but she came and wanted me, but I wouldn’t even sleep with her. Anyway, I saw her 15 years ago and we went to dinner. It was good and she was going to go on a trip with me. However, I had to cancel the trip and she got miffed as I had her reschedule her vacation. I don’t blame her, but I didn’t contact her until last week.
We had a great time talking on the phone and so many memories came back of travel, friends, situations, etc. Neither of us talked about the abortion.
Well, she has been married twice and engaged twice (counting me). I believe she also had a couple of other meaningful relationships over the past 37 years. When I told her how I found her email, she asked me to find the guy Ed that was our issue. And, then she asked me to find 3 other guys info, which I did. I do know that she emailed Ed, but I don’t know what went on. She wants me to come see her. She lives a couple of hours away. I really want to see her and I have feelings for her, I think. It hurt when she asked me to find Ed, especially. But, hey I am married. My wife is an invalid and we haven’t had sex in 10 years. I haven’t been with anyone else either. Others in my age bracket think I am hot although balding. So, it is not for lack of oppurtunity. I believe in marraige vows, but I have this deep feeling for this person. Am I jsut trying to re-live my youth? Should I run? She is close to her family and they all want to see me as well.
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