ali03

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One more thing to mention, im actually certain he isn’t with anyone else in his life. Also, our group of friends are the same too.

[ali03]

Were both 19 years old and this was an in person relationship. We both went to the same highschool and now we both go to the same university, in fact we even took two classes together as were are in the same program of study. Not only that, but we both live around the same Neighborhood and his parents knew of us two as well, so i had met them a couple of times as he had invited me to a family event or two. We used to go to the gym together too.

Not that i really recall of anything changing between us two exactly, it was just more of his lack of attention towards the relationship itself and myself as he became a little closed off which put more a bigger influence in how we both started reacting towards each other. Every time, we would meet or hang out, i just felt like he wasn’t so into it as much as he used to be, nor would our conversations be as deep as before and he wouldn’t care to tell me things that he’d normally tell me. As i said before, he mentioned “its not me, im just not feeling it no more”. So with response to that, as i started trying more and questioning him once or twice about if he was okay, i think he took me as a little to clingy but that was only because i got a little concerned as to where these actions would lead to.

With regards to the relationship itself, from what i recall, we have not cheated on each other, nor seen anyone else. At this point after the breakup, im just a little unsure on his side now. He would always tell me he was so intrigued by other women and we would joke around, and i think that not only because he has started working out a lot now, he feels like he can get any girl in the world because his “masculinity” kicked more into place. He would at random times tell me how some girl complimented him saying his body has gotten so huge, or this and that. Oh, that reminds me, after our break as things were still not going so steady, we had a little conversation where he mentioned an example of something like you can’t just admire your own car, it gets old, thats when you start admiring other’s too and another one was something like, if i gave you a barbie doll and you got tired of it and wanted a new toy to play with, wouldn’t you get a new one? or something of that sort and so he related this to the relationship itself. So now he claims to not feel the same way as i feel, and how he can’t keep it going on if he doesn’t feel the love and doesn’t want to be in a relationship at this point in his life because he wants to be alone. Apparently, he told me how he got back with me after the break because he felt bad, so i don’t know where that came from but yeah nor does he want to see me in person or hear from me.

It’s a little complicated, because here i am, on the total opposite side, I didn’t even think of the relationship in any different way, nor did i feel any different in terms of my feelings. I really love this man and im head over heels for him but i just don’t understand how to get to him in a way in which i could understand him, and he could understand me and at this point, i really feel my emotions getting out of control because i just want things to be normal again and for the love to be there again from his side.

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