belle82beauty

[belle82beauty]

ha ha ha I look back at this and read the commentary from all of you and ha ha you know what fuck all of you. Lol. I have grown and changed and now my life is splendid I am very much happy and successful and doing very well for myself. I must have been an idiot to come on here looking for advice, lol you all are a joke that is why you are on here as it is. The guy I made the mistakes with he and I reconciled fyi. Oh yeah and I figured out he just was not for me and I left him. I have now been in a very happy and healthy relationship one of which I can call him my best friend. Ha ha tah tah folks this is my last time to view this I hope you all get a life of your own. Rather than giving shitty advice to others. Ciao 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄 🙄

[belle82beauty]

based on the last 2 responses i recieved i accept your honest and respect your opinions. to the first person i sent you an email stating how i felt about some of your comments. and let it be known to anyone else who feels the need to judge me on here i will not sit by and take it. this place is only for advice, i did not come on here to hear someone call me names or tell me i am something when you really do not know me. as for the second person, no i am not joking about love and making a relationship last. i know of so many elderly people now who are still married after 50 years and i have heard so many stories of infidelity, where the man or woman actually went out and had an affair they actually went out to meet someone get to know them sleep with them and continue to see them. and they made it work. i did not do anything intentional or with any bad intentions to my boyfriend, but i did hurt him and lie to him in the long run. my reasons were probably a little selfish, but what the hell i was ashamed, embarrassed, scared, insecure, shall i go on with the way i made myself feel by doing what i did, and yes i know i did it to myself. but at the time i did not see any other option. i would like to know if you were a single mom of 2 kids who tried to get a job and couldn’t and there dad decided to wipe you clean of all the money you had and refused to pay child support on top of that and could not get on welfare, what the hell would you have done to make sure you had money to feed those kids and make sure that if all went wrong you had money to put them into a hotel at least huh? what would you have done differently?

[belle82beauty]

I have made the changes that i needed to make. he and i are still in semi talking terms. he said he just needs his space to figure things out. it is so hard to listen to the advice given as far as leaving the man alone. have you been in love and made a mistake or even no mistake at all, just being in love is enough and they left you suddenly. well when you are there your mind works so mysteriously and first it is denial. then realization. then it is decision making. do i love him or dont i? is it enough? do i fight for him to prove to him to show him? do i fight to try to keep him around? do i let him go and move on? do i let him go cuz i think that is what is best? do i just stand back and wait? questions like that form and it makes it so hard and confusing. for those out there that is what love is. i hate peoples advice is always to run or to move on. that is bull. i mean unless your life is in danger or you yourself are not trully happy or in love with that person. there is no reason that couples can not stick out any ordeal and make a relationship work. it is advice telling people to just move that bothers me that is why no one gets married anymore and if they do divorce rates are so high. what happened to death do us part or finding your one true love. no one believes in love anymore. well, on that i do agree with what i need to do to fix me, which i have. but until it happens to you and you are forced to make decisions kind of spur of the moment some times people fail in those decisions and make mistakes. it is whether or not we learn from them. i am aware of the 12 step program. i come from a family of alcoholics. u can tell me god this and god that but i used to believe in god until shit fell apart, then my belief is gone. where was he when i needed him most? i always have been a good girl never done any wrong to no body always went out of my way for everyone. have always been a trustworthy person. i even before i was with him only been with one guy which i was with for 9 years and had 2 kids by. so dont take me as some chick who just was being selfish and mean. i got lost is all.

[belle82beauty]

hey i am a girl just like that, i did the same thing to my boyfriend but i did alot worse. you should read my advice letter. i agree with what she told you. you are very young and you can find a lot of girls out there and like tom lykis would say you are too young to be in a relationship anyway. i am 26. i have acted like your girlfriend since i was in my teens. it boils down to her insecurities and self esteem. if she does not work on either or try to make a change she will always be that way and she will get worse as she gets older and become more controlling. i am now seeing a therapist and a psychologist. she should be taking her antidepressants those are an aide to control her mood, whether it is a disorder or something as simple as a chemical imbalance. you really need to focus on you, your education, and career first. Once all that is in line then worry about a relationship. that is what i am already doing and i am alot older than you. i am only worrying about my relationship and not wanting to lose him because i am sure he the person i do want to marry. as you get older you will learn more about yourself and what you want. good luck to you

[belle82beauty]

i will say this i sound like the devil for what i did to him, but i really do love him. i know it sounds ridiculous, cuz after i read it to myself all i did and it is not in detail about the deceit, which i did a lot of. i do love him. i now am being hit with a huge reality check. i cannot change the past, however i can change the future which is what i intend on doing. whether it be with him, alone, or with someone else. i can only forgive myself for all i have done. i would hope that he forgive me too. i wish he would take me back… whoever reads this all male or female be completely honest about what you think about me, what he should do, what i should do, and what you make of the situation. tell me what you would have done or done differently. thankx

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