sorry for the confusion lol it that im so confuse. The first guy i had a baby with was back in 05 which she is 7yrs old. I was 17 at the time when i had her and he was 17 as well. we were dating 4yrs after i had baby and it didnt work out because there was cheating involve, no trust, and no respect. so after a month broken up i fell in love again 🙁 i didnt intent this to happen but it did we moved in with each other 2 months of datin in his parents house because at the time he was 19yrs and i was 20yrs. i got pregant immediately and thats when things were changing sort off reminded me of my previous relationship. i feel like i changed him because all the hurt and hate i had with my baby daddy #1 , i took upon him, he was nice with me but i didnt trust him because i knew he was a player back in his days so thats when my jealousy just got worse and from there we just argue n jus lost respect for one another. We been together for 4yrs as well..we jus had another baby in november of 2011…but our trust is gone..i try to control myself but like he feels that i only have to change. now im left with 3 kids at my moms house which i cant stand. he still lives with his parents at the age of 23. im 24 by the way. we tried getting an apartment but we always got rejected, i tried getting a job but i always got rejected so we had to keep living in his parents house which its just drama like that. now what lead to this split is the harsh words that were said. he was in a bad mood because of a previous arguement so i gave him a day to cool off. the next day i asked him for money while he was on the phone with a female friend from high school (she’s married but still) and he jus gives me attitude saying i dont have money, so i ask him whose that hes like “a friend damn “. i start getting angry because the way he talkin to me and he explodes after he hangs up the phone talkin about i dont let him do nothing, im jealous, hes tired of me, and he said the worsty thing to me which i exploded next “i wish you die next to your brother”. he leaves the house with my 2yr old soon to be 3 and texts me leave my house im going to get some girl pregnant. den calls me and i hear ppl having sex i got out of control bcuz at that point im thinking he cheated. he got home 15 min later n i sort of tried pullin a knife on him but didnt. then he says it was jus a cd but i cudnt believe him so i pack my stuff and my mother comes by calling him coward and she sort of wanted to beat him so he calls cops on her, then his parents come and my mother argues with his dad both of them cursing. his parents still wanted me to stay but i felt pressured to leave. my boyfriend said if you leave i wont take you back im serious this time (i have a history of packin to leave then i always come back so got tired of it this time) but he the one who kicked me out. now his parents wont let me move back in which its fine bcuz i want my own place but now my boyfriend doesnt even wanna live with me. he has a job car, everything and i dont have nothing. how can he leave me with a baby we just had. im so depress. i love him very much. i slept with baby daddy #1 bcuz i felt lonely and ignored. im trying to work things out with but he feels pressured right now hes confused. it kills me to think he’s gunna be with some one else and forget about me and the kids. I really do not want to be in another relationship bcuz it woudlnt look right on me. im tired of going with guy after guy i just want a family. hate being single. i know its all drama i can type alot more about different events but i will seriously blow up you forum lol. thanksssss
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