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but I wonder how I gtot this way? but I will get your book. and you might be right somewhat. I would like to have a healthly relationship. change the way I talk when I MEET A GUY THat i things like me. being able not to offer so much information. I am here in a state where I know no one. about to move bact to texas. tell me what type of groups should i join just to have things to do. thank you very much.

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well I am picking myself up. and moving forward. and will get your book soon. I just hope I will learn something from it and besides I should never expect to be with someone who constantly chasing whatever. thanks for the advice.

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so if a guy talks to you for 5 months you would think something is going on.conversations are good, well i will try not to just put all my interest into one man, but i dont usually be in a place to meet other guys. tell everything i need to do untill i am able to buy your book, i really need some real advice. thank you

i wonder why he strung me alone for so long? why didnt he tell me we could be just friends, do guys be scared to tell us the truth? i will try hard to think and date like a man. then that way i am sure not to feel this way. every time i think i will play my cards right then comes these feelings from out of no where. so i have to be on the defense not letting anyone get close.and work on myself not get close to soon if it means walking away.

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where you i start. it seems like i’ve been like this most of my life always looking for a man. always wanting to create this fairy tale of a life. everytime i think a guy likes me. i guess i get carried away. thinking that he likes me as much as i like him, but it always turns out bad. i have never met a decent guy that would love me for me. i think he likes me then i get all these happy feelings. just to be let down. i don’t know why i am like this, but it maybe to late for change. i have lived all of my life in misery. i was married up until last year, had to get rid of that drunk. but iam in college now. graduating next year. how could i change if i have been like this all my life. no one wants me to be who i am, they want to send you through changes. i had my phone number changed today. because i dont want anyone calling me. i never told anyone about this guy because knowing me things would not work out. you selling this book that may not help me. so i should just get a boat load of guys and keep them as friends? how can i make myself happy. i have to do everything by myself. evryone else they have people to do things with. i am in a state where i dont know anyone. i am so fed up trying to find someone to enjoy life with. i talk to much but not to every guy. i just dont know what to do, sometimes it’s hard to tell what i will do next. i don’t know how to meet descent guys. life rea;;y makes me sick. i really hate men.

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so since this guy was misleading for whatever his reasons were. how do I prepare myself for a good clean healthy relationship? first a guy back home got in touch with my children and wanted me to call him. so i did but he went through a lot of trouble for nothing. and then this one. i don’t know why my patterns are the same. i don’t know if it’s because i talk to much, tell to much invent a dream life to much. i just don’t know what to do. ok where should i start first. i am not getting any younger i just want a good relationship. help me.

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so you don’t believe in God? the creater of the universe? all this is human issues. if you don.t believe in God how do you think mankind came in to play?

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But God showed me this person in my dreams 3 times. and nothing was bad.God gives me visions in my dreams I see things before it happens. been like this for years.

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we don’t live in the same states plan to meet in December.

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[size=150]WELL I MET THIS REALLY NICE GUY ABOUT 4 MONTHS AGO. HE HAS NOT SEEN ME YET BUT HE HAD AGREED TO WAIT UNTIL I COULD GET PICTURES MADE. SO THE PROBLEM IS. I HAVE ASKED HIM A FEW TIMES TO CALL ME BUT HE HAS NOT DONE SO AS OF YET. MY COMPUTER BROKE DOWN A WEEK AGO I WAS HIGHLY UPSET BECAUSE I DO EVERYTHING ON MY COMPUTER. SO I HAD TOLD HIM ABOUT THAT IN A E-MAIL HE SAID NOTHING TO THE FACT, I TOLD HIM I WAS SICK BECAUSE MY COMPUTER WAS BROKE. I ASKED HIM TO CALL ME HE SAID SEND ME YOUR NUMBER AND SO I DID HE STILL HAD NOT CALLED ME. SO EVEN THROUGH THINGS WERE GOOD BETWEEN US I OFTEN WONDERED WHY HE WONT CALL ME. NO HE’S NOT MARRIED. BUT I WENT TO THE SITE WHERE WE FIRST MET AND I SAW THAT HE HAD BEEN GOING THERE FOR 3 WEEKS. BUT EVEN THROUGH HE WAS GOING THERE HE HAD A FEW WEEKS BEFORE ALL THIS HAPPENED HE HAD TOLD ME HOW MUCH HE CARE FOR ME AND WE ARE ALWAYS MAKING PLANS FOR HIS RETURN TO FLORIDA IN DECEMBER. WE TALK ABOUT 2 TIMES A WEEK. SO WHEN I FOUND OUT HE WAS BACK ON THE SITE I WENT COMPLETELY OFF. NOT GIVING MYSELF TIME TO THINK THAT ITS PROBABLY NOTHING, SINCE HE HASN’T CHANGED ON ME. BUT I ASKED FOR, FORGIVENESS AND I ALSO MENTIONED THAT HE SHOULD SHARE SOME OF THE BLAME. BECAUSE IF HE HAD OF CALLED ME I WOULD OF BEEN OK. ALL I WANTED TO DO WAS FEEL BETTER BECAUSE COMPUTER WAS BROKE. I FEEL LIKE TJHIS HE’S A CHRISTIAN MAN WHO TOLD ME THAT HE LIKES ME ALOT. SO BY GODS GRACE WE SHOULD BE ABLE TO GET THROUGH THIS. YOUR RESPONSE WOULD BE NICE. THAK YOU. [/size]

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