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Ok I have confirmed K had a hidden agenda towards me, since Iast night she tested me “let’s go hiking tomorrow and saturday we should go to stripclub, you need to stay away from M’s seduction trap, a friend has a chatity belt you can borow it”, I responded today when I woke up “That would have been useful yesterday, I’ll confirm later on the hike”, she then said “retreat, no hiking tomorrow”, only that, I thought she was going surfing but she won’t be surfing just checked facebook, all type of messages from K to her close friends (also my people from school friends), “I’m sensitive”; “I’m quite emo right now”; “My exercise mate was absorbed by my personal antichrist”; and my favorite and most obvious “I need your emotional wisdom”

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Well allow me to add a couple of facts here, since I was a kid in elementary school for reasons I cannot understand most of my friends tend to be girls so I think that erased gender differences for me since I was a kid, that changed in high school cause I was in military school but started happening in college again, since my freshman year my very close friends are 3 girls (including M and let’s say Ale and N) and 1 guy (let’s call him A), the other two girls are like my little and big sister, with them I’m way more close than with K, we even give each other little kisses in a very innocent and fun way, and even though they are both beautiful I would never have sex with any of the two cause they’re like my sisters (oh I’m an only child). Now M could have reasons to be paranoid cause she and I were friends first, in fact she says she’s watching her love story over again but she’s not in it.

Now regarding my behavior I understand that I might no be able to see signs of flirting from K cause of the asperger, but part of this whole question is to get different opinions from different people, from my close friends, A (who knows I hang out with K behind M’s Back) thinks M is just completely crazy he says there’s obviously nothing going on between K and me so I should break up with M; N (who also knows that I’ve been seeing K) at first though M was crazy but then she has reconsidered that even though she believes I’m faithful man and wouldn’t cheat on M nor provoke anything with K, she now thinks that K is totally into me and thinks cool it a bit with her; Ale knows nothing about me seeing K and hiding it from M, yet she has taken the strongest stand and thinks I have something weird going on with K and tells me I should stop it.

And well about my time with K, when we painted my father was also there, he thinks there nothing going on with us, after the first sleepover she just asked for her not to sleep at my house, after the movie (which included a lot of other people) she requested not to spend time alone with her and the reason I didn’t payed attention to that wasn’t because I can’t live without K or anything like that but because I felt I was a direct attack to my freedom as an individual, oh and on the more shallow side because she’s my only reliable exercise partner (I used to play football or soccer, whatever you wanna call it but no longer do) and I gained 11kg since last august to the present time (have lost 5kg since last month and a half) and well 8 kilometer hikes alone without an mp3 player is suicidal.

And well perhaps another reason I’m starting to like K is because since most my problems come form M restricting my space and freedom, K tends to ditch guys because “she needs her space and freedom”, so I guess that’s the reason I picture myself with her.

Also the constant yelling form M is driving me crazy cause she hates everything I do and every thing I enjoy, she says I’m inmature cause I play videogames, she yells at me for playing guitar when she’s around, she hates my passion for soccer, and all those are my favorite hobbies.

She yells at me for playing “classroom soccer” with guys at school which I find incredibly silly cause even my professor laugh when they catch us.

And she even yells at me when I study, cause I only study for test two days before and she says I dpon’t pay attention to her.

The previous 3 paragraphs describe ways that I think she restrict my freedom and takes away my space, however I’ve always thought this we’re just weird asperger related obsessions and that I was wrong, but with this more normal interpersonal relationship issues I’m starting to think she’s quite the dictator.

I’m just lost

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