Thank you April!!
We never lived in the same city. We lived in two cities very closed by. We would meet every weekend and sometimes during the week.
The first trip happened when I had a travel with academic propuse with my university, hence I was not around. Now, the problem is that i am too far away, and it is impossible for me to go on a weekend trip on Europe being in America. He cannot invite me.
He tells me that going on a trip with those girls are a topic we don’t agree upon. He says that he wouldn’t like the idea of me traveling with 4/3 guys, however that it is different with those girls because they are very closed friends to him and I have met them. He says he just knows nothing would happen. However, if I think about how we have met in boarding school and how we were very close friends, and how I could only perceive him as a brother for two years before we actually start to date, makes what he says have no sense. He answers me back that it is different, because since the first month we have met, he has liked me and he has wanting to stay with me. He always wants to make out of what he does an exception.
what has hurt me the most was not the trip and the place themselves (although those things have left me pretty hurt) what was worst was the fact of this situation repeating after we had already gone through problems and above all, the fact that he knew going wouldn have hurt me and our relationship.
I just feel that if he is to choose someone to left aside or to disappoint, it will be always me.
As if he does not prioritize us..
