Advice needed on somewhat unhappy marriage/ another woman#1
Married to a girl from philippines for 2 years, known for 5. Marriage is at best, average and very atypical. Met another filipino lady online about 1 year after I met my wife. This other lady, is perfect, never knew woman like her existed. I was financially dependent on parents at the time, k-1 visa application, time, money required to be together, they supported me 100%. I wanted to do this process with the new lady I met, but was afraid to lose support and not be taken seriously. So ended up choosing first lady because of circumstances, NOT because of true love. I regret to this day my decision, but I am afraid to hurt her and to end my marriage and start over, but I know that its what I want. Ive known this other lady for almost 5 years now to, we still communicate, fantasizing about being together. I just dont know how to end my marriage, I am afraid of being alone for atleast a year while I wait for the process to complete again, not to mention for a divorce to complete. I am very emotional for a guy, and I am very weak when it comes to stuff like this. I just want to talk to someone about this and especially get expert advice on the best thing to do. I have a lot of experience with women and relationships, I know more than anything this other woman is the one, and the one I am with now, is not. Even just talking to this other woman is the happiest experience of my life.