Questioning a Relationship's Future#1
I'm in a bit of a tough situation. I recently started seeing a man who has advanced stage Lyme Disease. He does not work full-time and primarily lives on disability benefits. Although we have only been dating for a little while, in the beginning this did not bother me. However, things have since changed. While I'm ashamed to admit this, lately, I've been questioning if I should continue seeing him because of his situation. I've been starting to think about what it would mean for our future and it has me worried. I never pictured myself being in a relationship where I'd be the primary earner, and more so, I don't know what to expect as his disease progresses. I'm afraid I won't be able to cope and will make for a poor caregiver, as I've never looked after anyone other than myself. I'm also afraid of what others would think of him. I know there is a lot of stigma surrounding people on disability. This all being said, my conflict is despite all said above, I can honestly say I've never met a man like him in all my life. I have a history of tumultuous experiences with men (I am both a sexual assault and abuse survivor), and for the first time in my life, I feel like I have found someone who genuinely cares for and respects me. He is warm, funny, supportive and I absolutely love being around him. We have a lot in common and can spend hours on end just talking and laughing. I just can't seem to get past his situation and am really struggling with how to proceed with this relationship. What should I do? Any help/advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.