I have been with my bf for 6 years. We have been broken up since a couple of months ago. Since we've been broken up when I left him alone he contacted me again every day and it was like we never broke up. I would try to figure out when his class got out so on my way to class I could bump into him just so I could speak to him. I followed him while he was with another girl. I left him alone after that, I knew what I did was wrong. Leaving him alone I was doing good with the space for myself. Then I started doing pop ups at his apartment which he hates anyone doing that. I did this 3 times last year. Then I messed up on a trip I desperately missed him so I knocked on his door for 30 min. He didnt want to talk to me we couldn't be friends everything. I left him alone after that and during Christmas break I dealt with myself. I didnt try to contact him didnt try to see him nothing. We were warming back up to each other and a few days ago I wanted to tell him something I felt was important. I popped up at his place he was so angry with me to where he kicked me out. The same night he blocked me from everything so now I can't contact him at all. When we talked the next day he said that was the last straw for him. He wanted to be with me and get back together with me and everything but my actions were to much. I asked him what could I do to get him to forgive me for all of the damage done, and he said he didnt know. I would have to figure it out. It's a lot of damage and words aren't going to fix what has happened. If I want something to come back for him I have to show it through my actions, because he isn't going to accept my words. It would have to be something big to have him say wow she changed. When I got off the shuttle the day after this happened I didn't realize he got on the shuttle. When I looked back he was staring at me going inside of the building. I don't know what to do and I am scared I've lost him for good. This was 6 years and I don't want to lose him.