You are right, that I should be thankful for the time I do get to see my husband, but sometimes it is a little difficult. And as difficult as it is I can see that it is selfish to want to keep both relationships as though nothing happened. I know I am an adult and my actions have consequences (and as you pointed out they could have been much worse), but I am still having alot of trouble moving on from the guilt and regret. I wish more than anything that I could take it back and change what I did. I guess that sounds weak, but its the truth. I appreciate the advice, it just seems that no matter what I do or try all I feel is anxious and depressed, even though I have no one to blame for this than myself. I guess that is my issue to deal with, since I caused it. Again, I appreciate the input, and the help.
mmsmith1977