[anabean]

Ya, you are right. I guess right now I’m just trying to come to terms with it all. I originally was upset and angry at him because he started a relationship with someone else before ending things with me. Which I think I was justified in being hurt and cutting off contact.

However, its not good to carry around this anger, and I’m in the process of learning to let the anger go, and letting him go. It’s sad to know that he couldn’t see a future with me, when I could see a future together.

So, right now I’m focusing on spending time with good friends, and doing things that make me happy. I do need to accept that I can have a life without him in it, and there are good things ahead for me, even if they are very hard to see right now.

Every day does get better (cry count today – only once so far, and not as intense!). I definitely feel that I need serveral weeks of no contact which is killing me, but it is necessary for healing. The hard part is to avoid his fb page, or online status, as I do want to try and become friends again at some point, just not in the way we were before.

Hopefully in a few weeks I can post some happier news about good things and that I have moved on. We all deserve the love and relationships that make us happy, and have to remember that !