It was a 2 year relationship, an emotionally intense, unstable, miserable relationship. The guy I was with was very unstable and so the relationship was horrible, sickening and unhealthy. I’m not sad because it’s over, I’m very happy it’s over and I do not like him in any way whatsoever…I’m sad and angered at the way it happened, the way I was treated and my wasted time for all the things I said, did put in and spent for 2 years. But this isn’t about that, I was just making sure it was clear that I am not sulking because I am not over someone I don’t even like. The impact and influence the person/relationship had on me has lingered for a long time and it won’t go away and I’m wondering if that’s normal and when it will go away. I used to be fine, content, happy…I’m not a sad person nor was I, I’m not a miserable, negative person, (I don’t walk around that way, I’m shy and quiet) but I was willing to listen to someone’s problems because I felt needed, like I had a purpose, like I was doing something… & it was a mistake…anyway, I love life and want to have the time of my life…I am even still optimistic of my life moving forward and my future goals even in the midst of my current sadness. I’m actually pretty perky. But after that had happened, I became depressed, and now everything seems to be effecting me…making me sad…it’s abnormal & confusing for me. I’m trying to understand it and get back to normal self.
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