5 years ago, I met a wonderful girl, my dentist’s assistant (she had her hands in my mouth) but married at the time, I declined dating her but pined over her, over the years . . . her name is Silvia.
Mar ’10 her divorce is final. At same time her best friend Mary “friends” me on you know where. Little by little she pokes and prods, and we begin a low-level digital thing, chatting and texting . . . in the meantime, I put off Silvia because I’m going through a bad ending with a borderline . . . . ugh.
About a month ago, Silvia and I decide we are going to go out on a date. Mary picks up her communication. Before I know it, I’m chatting with her every night. A digital connection that felt really good, we never met in person, however the pics of her were nice (also, she is going through a divorce, still living with soon-to-be ex) . . . and all this, unbeknownst to Silvia.
Silvia and I go out, and she reminds me a bit of my ex. The date was wiiiilllddd. No sex, but a lot of wine and kissing and . .
During and after the date, I kept thinking of her friend Mary.
I invited Silvia to an out-of-town wedding at a resort (before our wiiilldd date), she said she wanted to bring her friend Mary (???) . . . ok . . . later i figured the situation would turn into a train wreck, so a tossed a grenade to Silvia telling her I’m still messed up over my breakup and not ready to date, of course this wiped out the wedding weekend, . . and unfortunately I did it in a drunken text rage . . . and that is that.
My problem: I really liked Mary. Once I told her I cut it with her friend Silvia, Mary pulled back. I asked her to a lunch date, and she said no, that she would meet me if the 3 of us went out to lunch. She has successfully skirted me. Now I don’t hear from her at all. and I’m bummed 🙁
Any insights? Or is the obvious SO obvious that I should take a cold shower?
Thanks in advance.
