My boyfriend and I have been dating for almost a year now. We had an instant connection, and just such a strong love. He told me he has never felt this way about anyone before, and we definitely want the same things out of life and have the same beliefs about things.
Before me he was dating another girl for a couple years or so, and she moved into HIS house with him. Soon after that they broke up and realized they just weren’t a good fit and better off as friends. Or in this case roommates! 🙁
At the beginning of our relationship he told me almost right away that his ex is still living with him, and paying him rent. He insists he needs the rent money and someone to take care of the house because he is never home (always at work.) They have meals together – which I guess “roommates” do, but she also apparently does his laundry etc. I totally understood at first because it wasn’t long into our relationship. Now it’s almost been a year and the situation remains the same. He knows it upsets me, but I don’t know if he knows that it actually hurts me. Worst part is I haven’t been to his house. I know it was good he was honest and upfront right away, but he wants to avoid an awkward situation by not having me there. What would make it less awkward if she was out of there!!
I want to trust him, but lately I just can’t help but acting crazy and paranoid. Especially when I don’t hear from him. I can tell it’s pushing him away because I will send him suspicious texts. He has never actually done anything to betray my trust (that I know of) but this is something that really makes me act like a complete nut job! He gets jealous of any guys around me though! I wish he could understand it from my point of view because it’s gotten to the point where he is just hurting me.
I love him so much and I know we can make it work and be together forever. I can’t be without him, there is something about us when we are together. I don’t want to push him away by acting crazy and paranoid, but it is really hard for me knowing that when he goes home she is there. I know he doesn’t want her, but I don’t know that she doesn’t want him anymore. He is the one that broke up with her.
Please help me. It’s making me crazy and I can’t tell the difference between a gut feeling and being paranoid anymore.
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