Dear April, ( or whoever wants to reply )
Here’s my story…. I’m a sophmore in college now and back in High School I met this girl my sophmore year and we became bestfriends. She was in a relationship and I was seeing several girls. We did everything together in school skippin class and always having a blast. My Junior year we got closer and started to flirt alll the time and she was still in a relationship. Her relationship was horrible, the guy was a control freak and they argued all the time. I got into a relationship the end of my junior year with this girl and it was horrible. So, my senior year rolls around this girl and I spent every day together almost. Always having a blast and one day we looked just stared at each other and we kissed. From that day on it was different we both had strong feelings for eachother, but felt extremely guilty for cheating. It was like this everytime we were together, we’d sneak into the gym closet for quick kisses and hugs, id hold her hand real quick in the hall way and we just enjoyed every moment together. but we felt like we couldnt be together yet because what we did was wrong. Anyways I went to college for a year, broke up with my girlfriend and she broke up with her boyfriend… we hardly talked…. saw each other this past summer and the feelings came right back and we fell in love. had the best summer of my life. The problem is when I broke up with my ex who I cheated on with this girl, she suddenly became friends with the girl I love and she didn’t want to tell her because she felt guilty and she had to go to a wedding with her in october. so we talked about coming out after the wedding and she agreed. well last week before the wedding she tells me she doesn’t think she’s ready to commit because my ex started sending her letters about me saying how much she really loves me and she doesnt like her hanging around me so much. So that made her feel extremely guilty. on top of that after the wedding she tells me she saw her ex and missed him a little bit, but doesn’t have feelings for him, but she feels guilty for that? now shes telling me she can’t commit and she needs to figure out if shes in love with me or not or we are just really good friends. We’ve been stressing about it and i tried to convince her it doesnt matter what people think and we’d be so happy together. So i decided to tell her to get in contact with me when shes ready and ill see her on thanksgiving. shes also 2 hours away. I did this hoping that she would miss me and realize shes in love with me.
The question is do you think it was a good idea to do that? im missing her like crazy, but I know were always going to be the same no matter who we see. Thanks for answeres if u read this and sorry i wrote so much haha
