Bit of a lengthy story (ladies and gents) Wove has got me in a bind 😕
I like to believe im a straight guy, i normally feel very neutral to both genders and normally dont like to show any affection at all. i see myself as a (lonewolf) if you’d like. but recently iv started to feel emotions for my best truck bud. im 18 he’s 17 and we hang out all the time, and work on trucks and go mudding and ride around the city and do well…guy stuff. but recently sumthin hit me. and i feel stuff for him. and its making me mad. (?) i kinda might know why im mad, i think it’s because i know liking another guy is wrong and it would only make stuff really difficult for us in the long haul to talk about crap like this to people.But iv had this stress for maybe 3 months now. and i did a little research and some internet people said, for people in my shoes should distance themselves from so said person and or tell them whats up straight to their face. but i’v tried to avoid him, but , we go to the same school and same lunch and we park by each other, and he drives to my house every now and then and when he gets in my driveway he calls me to let me know he’s there 🙂 and i have to ignore the calls or if he come to the door, i have to tell my mom to tell him im asleep, so i wont have to see him. because im trying to make this Maybe( wanna be / love) thing go away. but he’s getting mad that im ignoring him and i feel more and more guilty everytime he texts me when he gets mad. and its killing me that im having to do this. but i wonder if i should stop distancing myself before i kill the friendship. I mean he might have given me signs. cause sometimes weeks apart, we’d be at my house and we’d wrestle and pin each other and he’d be on top of me and we’d be able to stare into each others eyes and not look away (sign? ) maybe who cares? but sometimes, when im driving around with him..he’ll out of nowhere put his hand on my hand on the shifter and ill grab one of his fingers and bend it until he retracts his hand, then poke around with him. and then he had the nerve to say (i wonder about you) i was like ( to myself now) you just pretty much held my hand and you have the neve to wonder about me, i just kept driving.i wonder about that kid!?. but i dont want our friendship to end. he’s real nice. and i kinda just ditched him again this friday before spring break too, ignored his calls. 🙁 So back to what i should do. should i keep this friend thing going as long as i can, and see where it ends up? and maybe see if i can get some signs from one of us? Thanks in advance for any advice
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