[itsmeyouknow]

Hi April. i Need your help with this. 2 months ago i broke contact with a had i almost had something with. but the problem is i cant forget him. should i write him this letter ? i am not watining for am answer actually i just want him to know wht i never could have said. please read the letter and im waiting for your opinion if there is something too much or what could i write better …. thanks april.. you are the best .

To my almost boyfriend, who never became something more than that.
There has been a while since the day we first met and actually even the only one we ever met. maybe you have already forgotten me but whatever. . I don’t even know you that much , in fact I know a very few things about you , but I guess you don’t really have to know someone to understand that they have something special . i suddenly became attached to you Maybe because I don’t really date that often and I get quickly close to people in a short time. The day we met I was really excited. I’m not even sure if it was a date or something else. We didn’t do much though, but it was enough for me to keep thinking about that day even now. We just walked among the river and than we sat on a bank and talked . You were the whole time so close to my face that I was embarrassed to even look you in the eyes. You were touching my hand and looking at me and wanted to kiss me but I just wasn’t ready yet and I was too exited and embarrassed at the same time.. But I wanted to kiss you too ,for sure I did , so badly. I still remember everything we talked about . How can I ever forget . . when I had to go to catch my train ,we stood up and then you kissed me . I was not expecting that actually but I kissed you back and there was when it all began . We walked and kissed and walked again and kissed .you hugged me with your large arms witch made me feel tiny all the time,and we kissed again. You had to lift me up because you’re way taller than me which I find really cute and weird at the same time . I was trying to enjoy every detail and every moment of that evening because I knew I could maybe never see you again . Not because I had planed to break contact with you , but because you were a little wired with me I guess . The thought of your kiss will always give me butterflies and I will always be reminded of you when I ever go back to where we kissed . You actually never knew a lot of things about me, I never really open up to you or had a deep conversation with you . I had a bad feeling about you from the start. Like something was way too good to be true. I believe we met each other in a bad period of our lives . Maybe it could have been different if we met a few years later . Who knows .i don’t know where it all went wrong, or if it ever really went right, now that I look back .I didn’t realize it at the time, but you did me a favor by both simply existing in my life and vanishing from it. maybe we werent ready for each other yet. I’m not my best self yet. Or even myself—I’m still figuring out who that is. I’m pretty sure even if we did work things out, you wouldn’t like me all that much right now. Since my life isn’t together, I think you’ll reject me. i sometimes think you had me fooled , but it doesn’t really matter now. I believe Each and every one of us has got some kind of a check list into his mind which includes the criteria that a person must meet in order for you to like him. I guess you matched at many of my subconscious criteria which obviously didn’t depend on your looks , because to be honest, you don’t look like my favorite typical kind of face of a good looking guy. I guess my criteria includes something like the way you talk,walk , the way you look at me , your way of talking openly about everything,or your humor ,or your body language, or your desire to help people, your kindness , or even the fact that you talk a lot. I don’t know exactly what, but definitely something about you .but i do know some things about you and it just amazed me how many things we both liked . I think about many things when I think about you. How could it have been if things worked out between us? That question always comes into my mind.and I start thinking.i built a vision of our future together in my mind. i created hopes, dreams and i built anticipation. I wanted to be the person you could talk to about everything ,about you feelings , thoughts or your future plans, about your fears and desires , about friends family and other stuff.I would have always listen and tried to support you in every of your decisions. I wanted to be there for you when you loose a football game and tell you that you can do better next time you play . I could have even cheer for you when you played . I wanted to be there for you when you fail at something , to remind you that next time you’ll try you’ll do better , or when you succeed at something to tell you how pride I am to have you by my side . i would have accepted you as you are and not wanting to change you.We also talked about your family too that day. And I must admit I may have felt a little jealous for the big family you had . Well maybe not big for you , but since a big family is something missing to me , I thought I could maybe fulfill that emptiness enjoying that part of yours and just feeling that big family atmosphere again. Maybe thats another unconscious criteria witch made me be attached to you. Maybe we’ll meet again one day who knows . Until then I’ll always care about you and wish you doing great and fulfilling your dreams and being happy even if you are with someone else. Oh and thank you. Thank you for giving me a nice evening when we met and that excitement and mini heart attack every time you sent me texts . And thank you for making me realize that I have Been looking for the wrong characteristics in a guy before . but strangely i never asked myself the question if you ever thought about me afer we broke contact, maybe besause i was sure u wouldnt. Sometimes, words are better left unsaid. Other times, those unspoken words could have made all the difference. i just decided not to risk anything by saying all this to you back than. I never wanted to look desperate that’s why I never opened up to you like this Before ,but it doesn’t matter anymore now. its all over.
Your almost girlfriend who never became more

[AskApril Masini]

I don’t think you should send it, because it isn’t clear what you want it to do for you. I think it’s great you wrote it because it helped you process your feelings, and maybe that’s the best thing it did for you. If you give me a clearer idea of who this guy is to you — how long did you date and why did you break contact? — I can give you some more advice.

[itsmeyouknow]

Thanks for your reply April.
Well , we wrote for a couple of months before seeing each other . We really got close to each other I think. We actually had just that one date , because after that I was the one who decided to break contact. After our first and only date , when we wrote he called me his almost girlfriend and baby and said that he really liked me and wanted us to be together . The reason I decided to break contact was because he was writing to me once in two or three weeks . I never actually wrote him first . And one day I just wasn’t replying and he continued sendin questionmars. Than I told him I didn’t like the way that he wrote to me just once in a while . He said that I was right am it was not the right thing what he was dining and that he’s sorry about that . After that I never wrote to him again .
In one week it’s his birthday and I wanted to send a happy birthday text.
With that letter I am actually not waiting for an answer , or wanting to do things right . I guess that too late now for that. The only reason was for him to know. Just that . I just want him to know . Its not going to change anything , i know that , I just want to say what I never said to him.
If he replies friendly to my happy birthday text , I was thinking of sending him that.
But I wonder , will he think that I’m crazy and out of my mind still thinking about him or will he think that’s nice and cute what I wrote .
Thanks again April . Looking forward to you r advises.

[AskApril Masini]

Got it. So you corresponded for two months before your one date, and then he never asked you for a second date. It’s been two months, and you want to contact him with this letter. 😕 My advice is still not to send this letter to him. Since he never asked you for a second date, I think you have to assume that he’s not interested and move on. The letter is way too much information for a guy who took you on one date and then never contacted you again. If you want to send him a birthday text that is simply that — a birthday text — I think that’s fine. But this letter isn’t really going to get you the second date you’re looking for. 😉

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