You’ve put real heart into this, and it shows. But after rereading your story, the pattern is clear for a long time you’ve wanted more than he’s willing or able to give. You’ve had fun moments and genuine connection, but every few weeks, you end up feeling the same way: uncertain, waiting for him to reach out, wondering if he cares as much as you do.
That kind of uneven energy wears you down. He may like you, but he’s not showing the level of consistency, affection, or initiative you need to feel secure and valued. That isn’t something you can fix by being more patient or lowering your expectations it’s simply a mismatch in emotional investment.
You deserve a partner who shows up, who communicates, and who makes it clear you’re a priority. You’ve learned a lot here especially about what you want and what doesn’t feel good. Take that clarity forward and let this go with kindness and self-respect. Love shouldn’t feel like waiting for someone to catch up.