This guy, he treats me so differently from other people. We’ve been in contact on and off again for two years, but we’ve never been in a relationship with each other; Although you’d think we had the way it is between us, with the emotional aspect. Its as if one minute, he’s acting like he doesn’t want to lose me, then he acts like he wants nothing to do with me at all. This hot and cold behavior has been going on for two years. I think I’ve finally reached acceptance that he’s not interested or else he’d be around me, talking to me, at least being friendly. Its as if he HAS to keep me at a distance, like I’m a threat to something, as if I make him vulnerable. I’m not like the girls he’s used to, being I don’t get drunk, smoke and I’m not immature and obnoxious.
I told him recently that I recognize my value. That my time, heart, and my body is a prize, not to be given away freely. I then told him that I will remain a forbidden fruit, off limits to him and that I’d like to be cordial, nothing else. He never replied to me, but he made an update online that said ” If you tried to hand it to me, I wouldn’t take it. I don’t work like that. That’s not work. “, granted, that may have had nothing to do with me at all, but I feel it did. Even still, he isn’t pursuing me. I’ve vowed to back off, go no contact so I can move on emotionally. The future is unknown, but I have to for now believe that it isn’t meant to be so I can continue on without him and not expect to hear from him again. It really hurts, but I have no control over another, only myself.
