o there is this girl. I’m a senior in high school and I talked to her quite a bit for a short time at the end of my sophomore year (she was a freshman at the time). Last year we had no classes together but this year we do have a class. This year I always sort of felt like we had a certain amount of romantic tension (kinda hate that term but whatever)…nothing too obvious because she is a pretty reserved person; just like a certain kind of smiles and looks, you know.
I was never really sure if I was misreading something so I never acted on this. Back in December, though, we were talking after a drama show and I really got the impression that she was interested in me. I asked her out the next week, got a “sure” and was quite happy with myself until she sent me a text ending in “Great! Who else is coming?”
I agonized over that quite a bit. Was I unclear in asking her out, and was she checking to see if this was a date, which she wanted? Or was I just misinterpreting things and she genuinely just assumed we were hanging out as friends?
I ended up backtracking, inviting other people hastily, etc. I sort of regret that but I’ve never had an easy time making myself vulnerable. Lately more and more she has been seeming sort of distant towards me, and I think (or want to think) that it’s because she was interested in me and then we didn’t go out like she wanted. I can’t tell if this is fantasy or a plausible thought….I have been thinking of just talking to her and being straight-up about everything but I can’t figure out if that is delusional or emotionally honest.
Sorry for the walls of text.
