So long story short, I’ve been dating this girl for a little over 2.5 years ever since we graduated college. She’s great, she loved me so much and was always there for me and we had so many good times together. My family, my friends everyone loved her. We were just compatible I guess, she got me. However, a few weeks ago for whatever reason a bunch of people began asking me if she was “the one” and I couldn’t give them a straight answer. So I thought about it for a while and realized that it didn’t have anything to do with her, it was just that we had been dating ever since graduation, I never had another REAL girlfriend other than her so really I had no basis of comparison to really know if she was it for me (I’m 25 btw). So I decided to pull the trigger and naturally she was so sad and devastated but she totally understood where I was coming from and kept telling me “if it’s meant to be it will be, but go find yourself.” Now it’s been about a week, which I understand is nothing in the grand scheme of things, but I can’t shake the feeling of missing her so much, I never thought that it would be this difficult and I’m wondering if I made a mistake. My biggest fear is I realize somewhere down the road that she is the one for me and isn’t available anymore or no longer interested, but at the same time I do want to give myself a chance to understand myself and I don’t want to seem like a coward and run back to her right away. But I just miss her voice, talking to her and being with her, to the point where I’m kinda having trouble sleeping. She provided a sense of stability to my life which I’m wondering if I took for granted, I’m just totally unsure how I should go about this now.
