Alright so I have an interesting one for yah. Here’s the low down.
So Me and my best friend have been friends for about 4 years now. (were both 18). Both of us are huge stoners, we hang out alot but not nearly as much now as he’s in college now. But anyway last summer all of a sudden I came to the realization that I love him. And was attracted to him as well. ( were both guys by the way). Now I’m basically bi-sexual in the sense that I have the capacity to be attracted to some males. ( But probably would not do anything sexual with them If I had the chance) Now my best friend is also bi-sexual (But more so than me) Me and him get along so well together, we have never had any kind of negative feelings toward each other, we never get into any kind of arguments. Were basically the perfect match for each other. (From my perspective) Usually when he gets back for a weekend or for a break we chill all the time. A typical day with him consist of smoking weed, then playing video games, making food, smoking more weed etc. We share everything almost, and I love being around him. Now, the thing is my friend is very…odd. And by that I mean he’s got chronic depression, social anxiety, low self esteem, low confidants. Stuff like that and its almost impossible to gauge what he’s thinking. I’m better than anyone though at knowing what he’s thinking because we think alike on lots of things. Sexually, he is into a lot of weird stuff. He likes asians, transexuals, young girls, feminine guys, asian guys etc. So Its unlikely that he is sexually attracted to me because while I’m not unattractive I just dont think I fall into his realm. Oh yeah here the other thing thats really annoying. When were high and say chillin on the couch playing video games or watching tv or whatever I will basically feel him up. ( I’ll get really close to him, maybe put my arm around him or something, I mean it’s really pretty blatant and obvious) I almost cant help it I even do it when theres other friends with us. Now here is the annoying part he responds to it by doing nothing..He doesn’t say “back off man” or “yo move back” and he doesn’t embrace it ether. In fact it has never been mentioned. But the funny thing is I get why he doesnt say anything. And thats because I dont say anything. He rarely starts any conversations, It’s like 90/10 with him. So If I dont take initiative or do something outright sexual I’m not sure if he’ll ever respond. But I’m afraid to talk about it with him or do anything outright sexual because I dont really know how he feels about it. Were both really shy, I dont want to put any pressure on him like that, I love and respect him to much. I dont know how to proceed.
