Thank you April. We have gone to marriage counseling and yes we did let everything take control over us and we put ourselves in the back seat. I have been doing everything I can to make him see he is my knight in shining armor and truly my hero again. Things do seem better and aside from finding those texts he sent to that woman and knowing he was seeing her while we were seperated, he has given me no other reason to believe that he is cheating. I still fight with the insecurity demons. I have always had feelings of inadequacy in relationships even before we were married. I guess my fear is to sgow him how much I love him and make him feel loved, appreciated and everything only to find out he is still screwing around behind my back. Yes, he is an alcoholic and I knew this going into the relationship. He has gotten better even though he does still drink. (He is trying to keep it at a manageable level now.) I realize now that I need to figure out a way to put MY mind at ease, let go of what happened, and just have faith that he wont cheat or isnt cheating. I am making myself nuts with the constant wondering and being fearful. Thank you for your advice!
