Thanks for your reply! I just have a couple follow ups. About the cheating, what if she never cheated on me and never will? Maybe she made mistakes before but won’t do it to me. Maybe I’m being too paranoid. About the blowing up easily, after our last fight she talked to her best friend who told her she shouldn’t get so upset over little things all the time and just expect me to hover around her and do my best to make her feel better while she sulks for a day or two. She said she won’t do this anymore. About the money thing, maybe her dad will drop this over-the-top demand.
I love her, I don’t want to leave her and I feel like I’m in this too deep already. She will be destroyed if I leave her. When we had big fights near breaking up before she was very self-destructive. Or maybe it was a ploy for me to show I care. Anyhow, at this point I feel like it’s also my fault for moving too fast. I just always go with my feelings and go totally for the relationship before I really get to know the person enough. But maybe it could work anyways? I just don’t want to leave, hurt her, hurt myself, and possibly lose the love of my life because of some doubts I have that could be worked out. We’ve been together a year, I proposed to her in Thailand 3 months ago, we’ve both signed contract to work together at the same company next September, we’re pretty committed basically. This wouldn’t be an easy break up by any means. She said before if I ever stopped loving her she would want me to pretend and lie to her. That’s not where I’m at, but maybe I should just keep trying to work through it. I don’t want to give up just before we reach our goal of being totally happy you know? Most of the time we are happy, but the bad times are just so powerful, and despite our efforts, neither of us really feels secure in this relationship. THANKS 🙂 You’re awesome!
