Hi April, thank you so much for the advice. I have calmed down now and you know the funny thing, I can’t seem to stay mad or upset even though I am trying to. I should still be hurt, why aren’t I? I haven’t made any decision yet, it was recommend to me to have a clear head. More information has come to light that is giving me pause.
I feel relieved to have found out now and vindicated that my gut was telling me the right thing. I also feel pretty powerful, which is an enjoyable feeling. The one thing that might save him aside from it being the first/only offence, is that he did put an end to it after he moved up to be with me. Before then being long distance, as always was very hard and I hated it. Sometimes it’s not real when you’re just on the other end of a phone or computer most of the time. The month we’ve had living together with him being faithful was amazing and I could easily see myself being happy with that for the rest of my life.
Since this happened, he is really going out of his way to prove that he is one of the few who can overcome this. He did a spring cleaning of all contacts and emails etc, basically leaving guys and his family only just so I would never have to feel like there was even a question, and even changed his phone number. He did this all on his own to prove to me he is serious and he is fighting for us. He is fighting for me. And all the time I was ranting and raving he took it, all of it, and never made excuses. Admitting he had made the hugest mistake of his life.
And in the meantime my house has never been so clean (daily), my laundry done, meals prepared and waiting with roses. I am not deciding anything yet, but gosh he is going to great lengths, no?
