Im 23 shes 20
Its got to the point where theres a good chance shell be dead in a few years with what shes doing. It breaks my heart to see her in this meth psychosis.
Shes unpredictable, wild and even violent ans you never know what will set her off. Shes always been a little bit rough like that but shes fully delusional now.
Shes sleeping with seedy older men who shoot her up with meth.
Shes been kicked out of home and jumps from junkie to junkie getting as much from them as she can and causing massive dramas everywhere she goes.
But i love the real her and want her back to normal. I want her to want to be with me but more than that i want her safe and healthy and back to her usual awesome self. Even if the message just makes her feel a bit better im happy.
Shes been very cruel to me at times but i can see thru all that. It was a spur of the moment thing to send this as ive seen less of her as shes steadily been getting worse. It will break my heart if she doesnt have any feelings for me but it would be worse to stand at her funeral or see her turn into a wrinklec dirty old junkie who looks twice her real age.
