[Monkeymagic]

Thank you your advise does help. It is very sad and he did lead me on and hurt me really bad. I told him I didn’t want to be in this if it would end like this, but he kept convincing me and dragging me back in. I introduced him after his separation to my family, he wanted to do that also to prove to me he was sincere, I guess that all scared him the reality of the relationship becoming more serious and that is when he began to back off.

I do believe I have learnt a valuable lesson, but it still does not subside the pain I feel in my heart. But I will preserve and try my best to move on.

Your words are very helpful 🙂 Some things I have to accept I also don’t understand

[Monkeymagic]

And I think and wonder does he ever still think of me? Would I cross his thoughts at all?? Do you think he will ever talk to me again?? Will he ever contact me??

[Monkeymagic]

If he didn’t want to be with me why lead me on so so much?? Meeting my family and my daughter and promising them all things especially me!! As I promised him and showed him how much I cared It was amazing what we had, maybe that was all in my head. He told me it would be worth it and he was so very happy with me, something happened along the way that I missed

[Monkeymagic]

Honestly I am still so hurt. I have been trying so hard to move on and not let it get to me. I am finding it hard to understand that he doesn’t want anything to do with me at all anymore it has been 3 months since any contact, and I do feel rather used. He was my best friend and now he has shut me out of everything in his life now., I fear he will never talk to me again and that does kind of make me feel worthless! How do I shake these feelings,?? Did he ever really care I was I only being used, we were friends long before anything else. It hurts me to think what if he has moved on what if that was the reason he left me? I trying so hard to move past this!! I have good days and crap days

[Monkeymagic]

What get me now. Is that if he wanted to end it he should have stayed there. He came back to me after a week. And it was my thought of the one week chat and one day a month visit until he gets his head right. Maybe i should have walked away then too. Maybe we are pro longing what will happen. So i guess guys dont need time. They just want to push u away so u leave them alone. 🙁

[Monkeymagic]

Oh 🙁 thats sad. In away i know that yes. But he keeps holding onto. This is so hard i wish things were what they were going to be. I dont know how to get over it then. I see him every day at work which makes it hard. He always makes time for when i arrive. Maybe i need to distant myself then. And i guess if im wrong he will come back. He was the light of my life. It was so hard for me to open up to him took me along time since i been hurt so many times before. I believed his promises. And started to in away believe he did just need time. 🙁

[Monkeymagic]

He used to mesage me and say good morning and say he looked forward to seeing me. Every now and again he does but not so much. I really loved getting those messages made me feel wanted. He said he just needs tome to think if thia is what he really wnats as i was his escape for ao long. And he wants to want this. Am i just being silly or is it going to end

[Monkeymagic]

Okay i am 35 he is 30. He isnt divorced yet but in the process. And going through sorting out the kids visits. He gets them now every 2nd weekend and one day every 2nd week. He is confused at the moment too. With everything that he has going on. I also have a daughter myself who he has got to know and he has met my family. He said he needs to focus on them more which is fine. They should come first. But i dont belueve he needs to push me out. i have helped him through everything up until now. We talked constantly. Filled me in with what was happening now not so much. When we are together its amazing. But when we arent i feel so alone and distant from him. I get a little paranoid i dont twll him that. But only because of the way we were and all our plans we had. Now he cant make plans anymore. Every now and then he says something that is about us in the future. But i still dont know. his ex is a bitch and does make it hard for him. Do i just stand back and wait or is he pushing me away. when he did break it off with me i did tell him i felt that it was that i helped him get out amd now he doesnt need me. Which was the worst pain i jave ever felt. After a week as i said he came back and we made the arrangement. But it is still hard. he says he hates me being sad. But im still wondering is he just holding onto me so i dont be sad. or is there something more.

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