Thanks a lot April. 🙂
I very much see your point and I do know that it should take some time before I enter a serious relationship. Indeed, before that guy told me he thinks he had a change of heart I was already realizing I was not entirely independent, I kept missing aspects of my communication with my ex boyfriend which is of course normal. My ex boyfriend was the best friend I ever had in my life. I did at times search for the security my long term relationship was giving me in this new one which is so wrong and silly, I know.
The other thing is it went too fast. I wasn’t rushing things but we would spend 4 times a week hours together and sooner rather than later(not straight away, nothing like that) he/me started staying over at each other’s. I wasn’t looking for a relationship but it was a great comfort to find someone I could communicate with all too soon. And I kept thinking I’ll just enjoy this and see what’s next. And I think I am doing what you are saying I am. I am mixing things. I keep thinking that since we didn’t fall in love with each other and like each other so much and communicate so well why can’t we just stay in each other’s lives. And then I realize that I am just scared of being alone (not without a date, alone in general, a lot of changes happened to me recently and my friends/family are far away) and I am thinking in a way I wouldn’t normally.
and what’s happening to me is I am thinking oh I’ll never find someone else. And I am thinking how many chances will I have to find people that I will communicate with. So then I say ok so let’s keep this one in my life. I do see it’s all happening because I have been in one relationship for so long.
