April, maybe a little background needs to be established. She has been probably my closest friend throughout my life and she is attractive. I rather enjoy what she’s doing, even though it still embarrasses me. But I have no clue what she is doing; whether she is aiming for something else or just playing. Or could she have suddenly developed a mean streak? She’s never done this to me before. That is, never purposefully. It was only after school that she found out about my oddity.
Just so you will know, I was the class geek in school, had a few derogatory nicknames, and was well aware that I was less than plain-looking. There were a few criticisms of my looks to help confirm my own assessment. Consequently, I never wasted time in high school, and the years following, on trying to get a date and was always suspicious whenever a woman “seemed” to show interest.
At no time did I ever “tell” her about my fetish. She caught me watching her engaged in the activity in class during junior year.Forgotten for many years, a discussion we had brought the memory back to her, and she came to a very accurate conclusion. Does she make me “uncomfortable”? Like I said, she is attractive, and I rather enjoy what she’s doing, even though it still embarrasses me. But I wish i were a good reader of human beings.
I won’t say more because your forum draws from many participants of both sexes.
My friend, however, was the most beautiful girl in our class and one of the most lovely (if not The Number One) in the school. She was shy and quiet back then but not so much around me. We got along very well. But given my past, you can understand why I don’t comprehend a lot. Even less why a beautiful woman would have any interest in me. Plus I’ve always thought it was wrong for me to think of a friend as attractive and desirable. Still think that way to this day.
