Thanks April. That was what I thought, enjoy what you have, don’t give up on it and see what happens. I have basically fallen in love with her, as much as I don’t want to admit it. So we had a little talk the other day before I read your advice. She had been really blowing me off for over a week. So I told her the situation between us was getting a little frustrating for me. She did have a lot going and if that’s all it was that’s ok, but I was getting the vibe that she wanted me to go the hell away, despite how good a time we had when we went out. Basically she said yeah, she has a great time spending time with me, but has the impression that I’m after more than she has to offer (re mostly liking girls), and that it feels a little selfish to hang out with me and encourage something that isn’t likely to happen. Like she would just be creating more frustration for me. And I got that. I told her what I told her before, that I had a totally reevaluated my intentions, and hanging out with someone that really makes me super happy is ok. If that’s all I get, than I should enjoy it, instead of being annoyed that it’s not perfect or exactly what I want it to be. Just enjoy it, for however long I can have it. I don’t know if that’s right, I really don’t. I don’t know if at this point in life I should still be looking for something that is exactly what I want it to be, or just be grateful when someone comes along that I’m attracted to, and like being around, and just try to enjoy it. Even if in the long run in very likely to get hurt or frustrated. Any thoughts on that?
