Hi, I’ve been with my boyfriend for about a year and a half now..
we are both 22 and we’ve spent lot of good and bad times together
fixed problems and came this far… we really love each other and is solving problems one by one.
What i’m mostly struggling with however.. is his ex girlfriend that he dated a year before he met me. They went out for a year and she’s so damn hot.. we had so many problems because of her before. Like he had whole file of pictures of her on his laptop..like kissing pictures hugging or whatever and he said he really didn’t care about it and hadn’t seen it when I got so pissed off at it.. so he deleted right away. Or on other occasions, she would call my boyfriend to pick her up from the airport and I was so angry about it hence he told her he can’t contact her anymore and deleted her number. (girl lives bit far away and come back once in awhile to visit her friends)
They broke up because she had to move a bit far away.. and again she is so damn pretty..let alone being so popular, i live in a small city and so many people know about her since shes so pretty.. and I find myself keep going to her facebook and getting all depressed. I personally don’t think im ugly but whenever is see her pictures, I’ll look at my face and realize how ugly i am and feel so insecure..
What makes me more sad is that even a year and a half passed which I’ve been with my boyfriend, all his bestfriends are still more close to his ex since they all met together at similar time and used to party together have birthdays together etc. They still keep in touch and seem to be way more close to her than me.
He always tell me she was one bitch and have the trash personality. Tell me he loves me for who I am and he doesn’t really care about her anymore so I should stop it too.
But its so hard… although they never meet, I keep doubting it thinking like.. what if they contact each other behind me, maybe he said he deleted but they actually keep in touch somehow… so crazy I know, but i can’t help it. sigh 🙁 my self esteem goes lower than ever.. and whenever she come back to this little city, I always happen to see her and I suddenly just want to hide and keep thinking my bf is probably better off with her since my boyfriend is very good looking too and attractive.
One of my boyfriends bestfriend is having a birthday party soon and he invited both me and her.. I really don’t want to go because everyone knows her better than me since i’m not much of the “party chick” and Im so scared boyfriend will find her more attractive… and I will just feel so ugly and stupid there.
What should i do! how can i stop this stupid exgirlfriend thing, I tend to be alright while shes away but whenever she comeback and I see her, everything starts again. And this really affects the relationship.
Help!
