hi,
so me and my boyfriend have been going out for 4 and half years since we were 17 and have never really been with anyone else. we decided to break up a week and a half ago. it was him that brought it up although i new we probably should i didnt exactly want this. he said he wasnt sure if he could commit to one girl for the rest of his life without knowing other experiences. i understood and gave him his space. he text me a few times sayin how much he missed me but still didnt know. then after he went out one night he came over after and we talked and he still didnt know. then he went out the next night an so did i, he rang me today saying he wanted to talk confessing his undying love for me and he now knows that its me he wants. He then told me he had kissed another girl and this further proved to him how much he loved me and in a way he doesnt regret it because it proved his feeling for me.
my biggest fear was that he would be with someone else but when he told me i didnt cry or scream i wasnt that shocked in a way. we talked and i took him back because he said it meant nothing and that he wasnt with me and would never cheat on me. i dont know if i did the right thing by taking him back though? i no he loves me so much and that he needed to kiss someone else to see what he wanted. kisses dont mean a lot to men right?
i just dont no how to get over this and stop picturing this in my head.
