I’ll try to cut the usual novel worth of stuff I usually type into threads like these, but I can’t guarantee that’ll work very well. Sorry ahead of time.
I met this girl a few years ago, I wanna say around the summer of 2007, maybe 2008, my memory’s a little fuzzy. She was brought as a visitor to my church, but eventually started coming regularly and became a member. She’s about a year and a half younger than me, so we were both in the church youth group at the time. I gradually got to know her and eventually considered her a friend. My sister, who’s about the same age and same grade as her, eventually became her best friend. I was friends with her, but never really considered her a best friend.
Eventually I came to find out that this girl liked me, though I never had any kind of feelings for her like that, so I unknowingly ignored her flirting and all that. My sister mentioned once that she had given up on me because she felt I wasn’t interested. Time went by, and I think she liked me on and off. Seeing as how I’d never had any feelings for her, I did my best to act like nothing was going on.
Fast forward to present day. She’s still best friends with my sister, and I consider myself good friends with her. I’ve never hung out with her one-on-one, but she spends the night at our house every few weekends, and my sister and I hang out with her semi-frequently. I’ve grown comfortable around her.
Now I pretty much know for a fact that she still likes me to this day. It’s all but been confirmed by her to my face. As far as how I feel about it this time, I honestly have no idea. A few weekends ago when she spent a day or two at our house, I started to almost feel something inside of me, like maybe I was warming up to the idea of being interested in her after all this time. I’ve always known she’s had an amazing personality and that’s always been one thing I’ve loved about her, but I started to see her as more attractive physically. I started to want to hang around her a little more. Today my sister and I hung out with her and her younger sister, and we had a good time. I enjoyed hanging out with her, and I’m at the point to where I can actually see us being a couple and all that.
There’s a small problem though. Sometimes it almost feels like my feelings for her turn on and off. When I’m around her, I feel like I’m interested in her. When I’m away from her for a while though, I don’t really seem to feel anything for her. I don’t get butterflies in my stomach thinking about her, it feels like I’m just thinking about a friend. I can still see us being together, but I just don’t get any thrill from thinking about it. I keep thinking I want to pursue a relationship with her, but at the same time I can’t seem to make up my mind. I’m not sure if this all even makes sense, or if I’m just typing out the ramblings of my mind early in the morning when I should be asleep. If anybody has any kind of advice for me, I’d gladly take it at this point.
