For quite some time now I’ve been having a personal relationship problem. For the past 5 years I have had romantic feelings for a guy who is one of my closest friends. From the day I met him I’ve been infatuated with him. We are very close and share a lot of history. When we were younger we dated on and off for about three years although not particularly seriously due to the fact that we were so young and unable to commit. Next year he will be shipping out for the military so my time to ignite any romantic relationship we may have is dwindling.
It’s been almost two years since we’ve stopped talking in a romantic sense and he’s been in a relationship for about a year and a half. We are still incredibly close friends, and although we both try to hide our feelings it’s obvious to everyone that we care about each other romantically. I’ve done everything I can to reign in my feelings as I’m not one to cause problems with someone who is romantically involved with another person, and went as far as not speaking to him for several months to distance myself. Recently though, and by recently I mean for the past several months, they’ve had serious relationship problems and called it off only to talk it out and have smooth period and once again they are fighting. The relationship is crumbling and I can’t help but want to take advantage of the situation. I feel awful about it and have taken a big step back to try once again to hide my feelings.
A couple of days ago he told me in confidence as one of his closest friends that he regrets getting back together witch her, that he saw how upset she was and felt obligated to protect her, and that while he loves her, and he’s just waiting for the next big fight to break out so he can call it off. He also went on to tell me about how his mother loves me and she told him she wants him to marry me. It was an odd topic for him to bring up and we both laughed about it but I can’t help but wonder why he would bring something like that up in a casual conversation.I know his family loves me. His mother constantly tells me she adores me and talks to my mother about how great I am. She says that she shows all her co-workers my picture and whatnot, and constantly brags about me. His sister says she wants us together. Apparently I’m all he talks about to them, and when he visited his mothers work one day he had a conversation with worker about me. Likewise my parents adore him.
I honestly don’t know where this is all heading and have done some soul searching and decided I needed some outside help. Please if you have time I would really appreciate your incite!
