Hi, I’m feeling very stressed and would need your expert advice on how to reduce my stress and find some mental peace. I want to tell you a little bit about myself: I am a married woman with three children, and my husband is a very good man. he loves and cares for me so much.
However, there is another man in my life who is my friend, or you could call him my boyfriend. He also has two children and lives with his wife. We first spoke over the phone 6 years ago regarding work. Eventually, he started messaging me occasionally, and I began talking to him too. We would talk all day long, but not at night because my husband would be with me, so I spoke to him in secret.
Our friendship grew so deep that we became emotionally connected. We started meeting outside occasionally and eventually became physically involved; I would go to meet him in a room every month. As time passed, his wife eventually found out about our relationship, and she insulted me deeply. I felt terrible and consumed by guilt for what I was doing. I promised myself and him that I wouldn’t do it again.
But he contacted me again and said he couldn’t live without me. I tried to make him understand that we were betraying our families and should stop. We didn’t talk for a few days, but after a month, we started again. Our relationship has lasted 6 years now.
Now, everything feels wrong. I want to leave him, but I can’t find the strength to do it. Now When he tells me ‘I love you,’ I feel nothing, no happiness, only discomfort that he is saying those things to me. I am constantly stressed, thinking that I’ve done wrong and shouldn’t have acted this way.
I am fine with my husband and have never let him sense that I am in another relationship, but when he tries to be romantic with me, I feel nothing but stress and anger at myself for betraying such an innocent person. I am extremely worried.
AskApril i really need your advice plzzzzzzzz.
I posted here because I cannot share this with anyone else.
Thank you for reading.
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