Hiii,
So this isn’t your typical love story where girl likes boy, dates him, breaks up and then is heartbroken. I never dated him and
we never did anything. We almost kissed (once) but didn’t, because he has a girlfriend. He is, by the way, a friend of mine;
we have a group of shared friends together so aren’t strangers.
We were both drunk when he asked what I’d do if he’d kiss me, and I said I wouldn’t do that because he had a girlfriend. He kept
insisting though and asking if that was the only reason why I didn’t want to. And I told him the truth which was that that wasn’t the only reason,
so at that point I thought it was obvious that I liked him.
He did feel bad for his girlfriend which I understood because I did too. He at first wanted to make sure I wouldn’t tell his girlfriend, but then
told his girlfriend the next day about what happened. I wanted to leave it with that, because I didn’t want to break them up. In that scenario I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. He, however, brought it up months later multiple times and joked about it. What I don’t understand, because at that point we had always
acted like nothing happened so it felt sudden bringing it all up again.
I later told him how I felt and he said he didn’t feel the same way. But what I still don’t really get is why he was insisting (on kissing and later on talking about it)
so much if he didn’t like me? I can maybe get into the scenario where you’re drunk and ask somebody once, but multiple times? And he did seem to remember it. Now this doesn’t mean that I want to know from you guys whether he likes me because he doesn’t and that’s pretty clear but I do feel betrayed and kind of heart broken too.
As I said we have more of the same friends, which also include girls and the thing is: I get jealous. He flirts/talks with them way more and wants to work
together on projects, whereas I feel like he’s avoiding me while the only reason I feel like this in the first place is because of what he did and said to me.
Note: before all of this happened, he flirted with me sometimes and even jokingly asked me out. He never made it a secret that he found me attractive.
When this happened he said things like me looking “amazing” and that I could get every guy there. That he didn’t thought he’d be good enough for me.
This was after I said no (but explained why) and sounded really upfront but was this also just the alcohol speaking? Can alcohol make you say things that
you don’t mean? And if so, why do you think he said this to me?
I really want to get over the jealousy because it’s tearing me up inside. It’s also making me hate my female friend(s), which I don’t want.
Let me know your thoughts. It’s hard because I have to see him a lot at my college. Thanks
